Hello everyone, I hope that you’re all having a good 2019 so far! It’s been a while since I last updated my blog so I thought that I’d give you a little update of what I’ve been up to, and where I plan to take my blog this year:)
So I’ve had a few questions about where I’ve been and, why haven’t I been blogging. As much as I would love to say that I won an obscene amount of money and moved to a tropical island, the truth is that I’ve just been doing me! I came to a point last year where I felt like I was stuck in a bit of a rut and wanted to purely focus on getting myself out of that rut, and back to a place where I felt content. Not particularly happy, but content as I personally don’t believe there is a definitive meaning of happiness. As much as I enjoy blogging, I knew that it had to take a back seat so that I could be fully focused on other areas in my life.
To be honest, the first part of 2018 felt like it was a bit of a blur. I was living my life on autopilot, and a lot of the time in my own head. I came to a point where I quite frankly felt uninspired and even blogging was no longer giving me the same satisfaction as it used to. I’m the kind of person that has an all or nothing mentality so if I am not feeling anything then I will altogether leave it alone. Blogging is something that felt very authentic to me so when I felt that I had to force it, I didn’t want to create any more content.
There were external factors that heavily contributed to how I was feeling which made it even more difficult to control. As well as feeling uninspired about my blog, I started to feel unmotivated and quite down a lot of the time. This was having a knock-on effect with other areas in my life. I started to internalise everything and live in my head a lot of the time, which was is never ever a good idea. With that being said, I came to the conclusion around the middle of the year that I didn’t want to live my life that way anymore. It was physically and mentally exhausting. I figured that I needed to take small steps to change my situation and accepted that it wouldn’t be an overnight job.
The first thing I did was receive talking therapy. I knew that I simply needed to get it all out in order to move forward and heal. I received consistent therapy for a few months and I can honestly say that it was one of the best things that I’ve ever done for myself. I used to have the mentality where I felt that I had to ‘appear strong’ so that I could be there for other people – and I felt like asking for help would make me seem weak. That was such a destructive way of thinking, and I know looking back that it did me more damage than good. Asking for help in any form is one the bravest and kindest things you can do for yourself. If you too are resisting like I was then I can tell you from first-hand experience that talking therapy has transformed my life, and my mind, for the better.
I also had a great support system from my friends and I’m extremely thankful for the very few, but amazing people that I have in my life. I feel that being more vulnerable and open has helped make my relationships even stronger. Taking some time off from the digital world gave me the time to be able to see my friends more and just enjoy living in the moment. I spent a lot of time visiting various parks in London and taking mammoth walks through nature – I find it to be extremely therapeutic and grounding. I visited an amazing park on NYE with my friends and just walked through the woods for hours. It was such an invigorating and refreshing way to end 2018 and to start the new year. That is something that I try to do every couple of weeks and I honestly feel blessed to live in London as I feel we have some great parks.
Another thing that has helped me is that my living situation has changed. I have moved to a place and an area I feel content in and has given me peace of mind. It took some time to settle, but I honestly feel super grateful with this change. The last few months of 2018 have been truly remarkable in terms of personal growth and transformation – I certainly don’t feel like the same person I was at the start of 2018, and I know that I will continue to grow for the better.
I’ve been having a little think about where I would like to take my blog in 2019 as I feel that I’m in a place where I feel ready and settled to gradually start again. I would like to focus more on talking about mental health and wellness as I feel that this is something that truly resonates with me and my experiences. I’ve realised that the aim for my writing is to try and help people to strive to be the best version of themselves and to know that they can overcome any hardships that they are facing. I will write about any topic that comes naturally to me and that I feel will benefit you too.
To all of my beauty lovers who initially followed me for my beauty posts, don’t worry, I’m not going to abandon my beauty posts – I will still share my thoughts about anything I feel is worth knowing about as I still experiment with makeup and skincare – I just feel that as I’ve grown as a person to when I first started my blog so my interest has shifted as well.
If you made it to the end of this post, I hope you have enjoyed it and have taken something away. Have a great 2019! I plan to make sure that this year is simply filled with enjoyable moments that I can look back on and smile. It’s been really lovely to be able to share what I have been up to – I’m really looking forward to sharing more with you:) I would love to hear what your goals are for the next 12 months, please comment below to share them with me.
Love Elle N xx